Playing Catch-Up

Yes, I'm still alive. You're not getting rid of me that easily. 😉 It has been a while since I last posted, but that really only means that I've been super busy.

Well a fair bit has happened. Most notably, I had two anxiety attacks while driving, an event that had never happened before. I have a theory as to why this has started happening:

Since I have been busy, the depression side of things has been pushed completely out of the way (ain't nobody got time for that!). However, the stress from everything happening lately has been building up. And while I am busy, I don't have the time for my brain to catch up, but when I slow down a bit, everything just explodes in my head. And driving seems to be a less stimulating activity, meaning that it's a chance for everything to catch up with me. Thus, anxiety attack.

Otherwise, I have been trotting along well enough. I'm still limping through uni, half on top of everything, and half completely lost. I feel like that's probably a standard feeling among university students, so I'm not too worried about that. So far, I haven't handed anything in late (unlike last year), so that's always a positive. As for the other aspects of my studies, I'm running behind. They're all just little things, such as not having the lecture notes printed before attending the lecture, but they all add up.

Financially I have been less than prepared as well. I've been struggling to pay the bills with my current income, and I got another bill in the mail today. I'll get through it, but it's frustrating to deal with, especially when it means I'm constantly eating into my savings just to keep up. A close friend helped me set up a budget, though, so hopefully that will help me out. We shall see.

I feel like right now, all I need to do is write a bunch of lists - and stick to them - and I'll be set. I pretty much live by to-do lists. I suppose my new budget is a list in a way. But I also need to write a new list to set out what I have left to do for uni before the mid semester break. And I need to remember to take my pen to work. I could get so much more done during my shifts if I wrote myself lists. Normally I end up completely forgetting all the things that need to be done, only remembering again in the last half an hour before I have to finish.

Anyway, all that to say, I am better at getting things done when I am organised, and I actually enjoy organising myself, but the big thing I need to get past is actually getting organised in the first place. And, of course, following through with my plans and lists...

~SA