Seasons

"Even the darkness must pass." ~Samwise Gamgee, The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers

The tale of Frodo and Sam trekking to Mordor in The Lord of the Rings reminds me of my own battle with depression. And there may come a day when I discuss what I mean by that, but it is not this day. I don't have the time. But all joking and references aside, I do hope to explain myself one day.

Today was extremely productive. I got my first assessment for the semester finished (!!!), as well as some other necessary things done, all before going to work. Seeing that first assessment being crossed off on my whiteboard is so motivating, though. I still have quite a large list, and it was one of the smallest items, but that one makes me feel like I could finish off another.

It's too late tonight to keep going on my uni work, since I do have uni on campus tomorrow. I'll be signing off soon, so it'll only be a quick note tonight.

Perhaps now is a season of motivation, of preparedness, of organisation and readiness. This feeling of "I can do it" is a breath of fresh air. It's so freeing to not feel like I need to procrastinate on everything. I have a plan, and right now, I'm sticking to it. I can't speak of a month's time, in a week, or even tomorrow, but right now, I know what I need to do, and I'm getting it done. The key point is that it's in my own time. I'm not rushed because I'm taking each thing individually and breaking it down, piece by piece, one task at a time.

But for tonight, I have done enough. It is time to rest, recuperate, and ready myself for another day of working tomorrow.

~Silently Aching